At A Loss For Words

I’ve struggled since Friday on whether or not to post about what happened last Friday.  I don’t want to be seen as jumping on the bandwagon and I can’t tell you how angry it makes me to see how people are exploiting the horror that went down in Newtown, CT.  And by this I mean all the posts floating around Facebook such as ‘how many likes’ can one get on a memorial photo or even the ignorance of the top news stations interviewing children hours after witnessing such atrocities.  I am even angry when the news shows people ‘live’ at memorials set up in Newtown, CT clearly there to try to get on tv just for the sake of being on tv.

I’m not going to dissect the events or even give you my opinions on guns/gun control…I just want to put it out there what I’ve been feeling and thinking about.  As a first grade teacher for three years…I broke down and cried today as the photos of those innocent children slowly appeared and disappeared on the television.  And as a mother, I can’t even begin to imagine what those parents are going through right now.  Newtown could be any town.

What has this world come to?

So many questions…many of which will never be answered.

I haven’t slept well since Friday, I keep thinking about those teachers and children.  I try not to think about the shooter, he doesn’t deserve it…it’s what he wanted and by giving him the notoriety that the news stations are giving him…he get’s what he wanted.  And I will not give that to him.

My husband and I have hugged and kissed Mabel more times than she would probably have liked since last Friday in wake of this tragedy.  I’m thankful that I have the chance to.

My thoughts and prayers are with all of those who have been affected.